gratitude is da memory of da heart...

new journey...

2005-02-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

eh i got myself a new blog..hehe..http://chewytiramisu.blogspot.com

tired x 100!

2005-01-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

started work for quite a few days le..damn tired..but im v happy today! hehe cos the boss praised me muahahaha although this 12-10 job doesnt allow me to go shopping or have lunch wif friends..i still quite like it hehe get to meet all kinds of people..haha..best of all, i get to know all the different brands for beer..haha something which i usually wont bother myself about im deprived of sleep

2005-01-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

my first entry for the year 2005 life has been pretty much the same. boring. chinese new year's about a month from now and gosh! mummy has been nagging me about spring cleaning =x i dont understand why is she always so uptight about chinese new year..i mean it comes EVERY year.. whats the big deal??? guess what? she screamed at me when i told her that i will most probably be working on chinese

imagine..

2004-12-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

hey im back! haha as if anybody cares hahaha watched the news just now and began to imagine myself as one of those victims in the disaster.. hmm wad will be on my mind before i die..? who will i think of..? if i had to make a choice between which of my sons to let go, wad will be my decision..? how painful and agonising will it be to lose grip of my loved ones and see them being gushed away by

the earth is round! watch ur back! hahaha

2004-12-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

haha no wonder people say the earth is round (i mean duhz..) but yup..here i am trying to avoid somebody and someone else is avoiding me..farnie huh?! haha then again, since the earth is round, there is still possibility of meeting that person..haha so lets just see if we are fated.. you yuan de hua..dou dou zhuan zhuan hai shi hui yu dao de..bi ye bi bu liao..duo ye duo bu diao..hahaha oh btw,

And That's What Hurts

2004-12-12T17:20:00.000+08:00

Never let anybody know me Never let anybody dare Never let somebody hold me Long enough for me to care... Till I found you Till I found you Never let my guard down easy Never let myself let go I never knew the reason why I never let my feelings show Till I felt the pain Of loving you And that's what hurts When we say goodbye And that's what hurts On those sleepless nights There's nothing I can

Anne Murray -- You needed me

2004-12-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

I cried a tear You wiped it dry I was confused You cleared my mind I sold my soul You bought it back for me And held me up and gave me dignity Somehow you needed me. Chorus You gave me strength To stand alone again To face the world Out on my own again You put me high upon a pedestal So high that I could almost see eternity You needed me You needed me And I can't believe it's you I can't

2004-12-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

i would haf forgotten about certain things if i hadnt been to the hospital yesterdae wonder whether its a blessing or misfortune..siGh anw, gong gong is fine..very weak though its ok..it takes time to recover =) eh i've been slacking at home..too much gonna go for job interview tmr..recruit express is taking such a long time to reply us nvm just gotta wait for a better job offer to come hehe

2004-12-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

gong gong is hospitalised again high fever and lung infection he will be fine ya..? i dun wana go thru it again..at least not now.. arghh!

2004-12-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

i thot things have changed for the better i was wrong in her eyes, i remain inferior and her remarks hurt me..badly but its ok..i said ill be strong and ill try my best to be

Breathe again..

2004-12-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

watched The Outsiders vcd which xy lent me..hehe finish the whole show within a day =p quite nice..made me shed lotsa tears..haha i like the songs in the show..maybe ill go get its soundtrack one of them is Breathe Again.. Have you wondered how it feels when its all over Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new Never knowing where you're going When you face a brand new day It used

2004-12-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

christmas shopping and job-hunting are no easy tasks man.. was out for the entire day and my limbs are aching like crazy.. not the least happy even though i bought a long-sleeve top and a bottom.. almost everything reminded me of somebody..driving me nuts..bugging me like some annoying insect..oh pls pls pls..let me haf some peace..? the harder i try to forget, the more i remember..insane!

losing grip

2004-12-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

it isnt difficult to count wad we haf learn and gain each day.. yet, more often than not, we fail to realise that we do lose something each day as well.. sometimes, this 'something' matters a little more to us and we feel the pinch but during other times, it makes a quiet exit.. trying hard to appear unaffected, i realise, inside, im making a futile attempt to catch hold of what i've lost..

2004-11-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

a life without problems isnt life..

(>.<) (#_#)

2004-11-25T01:06:00.000+08:00

having my last paper tmr yet im not exceptionally happy or relieved haha perhaps i havent been working hard enough for those who have been truly piaing, this' gonna be a well-deserved break for them but im guilty of slacking even during the exam period so shant allow myself to celebrate..haha not as much anw, im expecting my after-As days to be very bz..mummy fussing over my untidy room, asking

mistake!

2004-11-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

eww! realised that some peeps know about my blog all along..i thought they dont -_- gonna blog less often and about less things le..im disgusted. its like they know more than what they should know about me..yuckz! hmm maybe stop blogging is a good idea........ love, chewy

qing song zi zai zhen hao!

2004-11-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

two more papers to go and ill be free from all these! yaY~ but that also mean two more days and i wont be seeing lotsa people in school..okok still will see them when we get back results next yr but not in school uniform? haha whatever.. hmm not really upset about that anymore actually..kinda getting used to not seeing them around le =p whatever it is, it has been a good 2 yrs and yup ill not

from a different angle..

2004-11-21T14:40:00.000+08:00

eh i understand sometimes we just want to keep our problems to ourselves..so to those who are feeling down yet dont want to talk about it, all i can say is, its all up to yourself and be patient..it takes time to solve problems..also, dont be too stubborn about certain things..at the end of the day, when you finally look at things from another viewpoint, you will probably realise that if you had

XXXcited!!!!!!!

2004-11-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

hahaha! went to watch Aviva Open Singapore 2004 today! nice nice!!! but my poor gade lost =< umpire kayu! cant believe he lost to lee chong wei..QB kia! and guess wad!!!!! i shook gade's hand!!!!! hahahahahahaha i mean its so unbelievable..never dreamt that i will ever see him in person and so close up somemore!!! hahaha but hes was kinda upset la..i must admit his standard did drop abit BUT!!!

get me outta this!

2004-11-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

hmm it has been more than a week since i last blogged but well, my mood isnt very much better it was, for a couple of days, until yesterday maybe? just didnt feel like doing anything besides stoning dont wana imagine what results ill be getting back next year ='( seems like i have learnt nothing for the past two years always thought that i could take it as it comes but somehow, im beginning to

can you tell me..?

2004-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

what exactly do you want from me? i have been trying hard to balance my duties well and yet, nothing i do seems to please you i recognise the efforts u put in but do u acknowldege my efforts too? im already very stressed up by the exams..i dont need any extra pressure from u..esp not when its related to such trivial things dont tell me u understand me..cos u DONT..perhaps even i dont understand

2004-11-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

原来当感情淡了身边就会围起一道墙这道墙叫冷漠把内心的热情隔开，尝试保温心里为他点燃的烛光始终无法熄灭蜡烛如今却已烧了一半也许，每晚做有他的梦只是为了在虚拟的世界里潜意识地试着延续蜡烛的生命到最后，还是不争气地为他落泪...

favourite quote of the day!

2004-11-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. ~ Mother Teresa

smile

2004-11-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

it suddenly struck me that perhaps now is the time to delete his msges when i was clearing my inbox just now although i still didnt in the end, the thot affected me much less than it did the previous time

friends are all i need right now..

2004-11-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

can sense the fade in my feelings for him so i reckon im letting go slowly? still dream of him almost every night but dont think of him tt often or miss him tt much le feeling more peaceful and happy now actually, im also losing confidence in such things ba r/s around me dont seem to work out well love seems to come n go so easily..before u realise its arrival, its gone..siGh perhaps its easier

goodbye to its you

2004-11-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

changed the song as much as i like the previous one (its you)..it brings back sad memories this new one is tsuioku (recollections) from 'Whisper of the Heart' anyway, i watched super sunday this afternoon..lame huh..? haha there was this lady on super mission who was searching for her late bro's ex-classmate..wanted to get back the photographs her bro took he was indeed a talented photographer..

ggrrrr.barks

2004-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

most guys are selfish. i said MOST not ALL..so dont start scolding me for being sexist on my tagboard. arghh pissed off. claimed to be so sensitive and nice yet hurt her at this point of time. plain selfishness. idiotic guy.

ouch..

2004-10-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

my poor little darling is sick =( pains my heart to see him cough so badly..sobsob but then again, he is still as mischievious as usual haha! he is so adorable..claimed to love me alot alot..a thousand times, a million times more than anybody..haha! obviously he has a favour to ask..wanted me to stay and play with him..hahaha! a ladykiller-to-be..in fact, he already is a girl-killer..all his

looking forward to that day..

2004-10-29T11:06:00.000+08:00

went studying with xy and fel yesterday..chit-chat and played more than we studied =p and now, here i am slacking online again =ppp learnt from xy that shes now a christian..lucky girl..get to follow her faith..hopefully i can too..but first of all, ive gotta get past mummy..bet she will scream at the top of her voice if i tell her i wana go to church =X however, xy said that God should be above

smile =)

2004-10-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

last than a minute before my big day comes to an end im really happy today cause i realised there are peeps who care about me those whom i didnt keep in touch with for a long time remembers my birthday =) although i know smsing and calling to wish me happy birthday is just a formality, it still brightens up my day =) really appreciate that alot.. thanks guys! another reason why im feeling good

im 18 years old =)

2004-10-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

hmm finally shi ba le but still not yi duo hua lehh haha the girls planned a surprise for me today..so touched almost broke into tears while reading the card as i mentioned before..if theres anybody i bu she de to leave..these 3 angels will definitely be top on the list =) the cakes at secret recipe are nice..the food is not bad too anyway, yiting's leaving for shanghai on mon..cant send her off

2004-10-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

watched love revolution through the night..mood changed for the better slightly though i still question my presence in this world every little thing reminded me of him..skipping took my mind off him momentarily though..coughed very badly after that..miraculously, i didnt cough my lungs out..got hit by the skipping rope a few times and hence, have red marks on my arms and legs..seems as if i was

cranky.

2004-10-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

xiang yao ba ni wang ji zhen di hao nan..si nian de tong zai wo xin li jiu chan..zhao zhao mu mu de qi pan..yong yuan mei you da an..wei he dang chu ni xuan zhe yi dao liang duan..ting ni shuo sheng ai wo zhen de hao nan..chen jing shuo guo de hua feng chui yun san..zhan zai tian ping de liang duan..yi yang de wei nan..wei yi de da an..ai yi ge ren hao nan.. this is what i heard over the radio

forgive and forget?

2004-10-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

watched pearl harbor just now.. so niCe!!! part one was romantic and part two was exciting!! danny walker died in the end.. sobsobz.. but well, his son is cute!! =) i prefer josh hartnett to ben affleck but i like something he said in the show.. "loving you kept me alive"~Rafe McCawley so sweet ya..? sobsobz haix.. in wars, losers lose but there arent winners.. romance which take place during

苦恋 -- 张学友

2004-10-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

说再见就断了所有牵连断了我们的缘却断不了思念想你一遍心痛的感觉就会多一点再痛我也不会拒绝干一杯就喝了所有的泪喝了所有的怨却喝不完心碎爱你一遍还不够让我用一生回味再苦我也不会后悔不甘心这样就要放弃一切就算你已经走得很远至少我还记得爱你的感觉我的心迟迟不说再见我情愿一辈子苦苦痴恋不说爱恨就算是一等再等我也情愿一辈子苦苦缠绵不求缘份陪你走这一程如何？很悲哀吧？所以歌名才叫苦恋。。。其实，能以自己的方式默默地为某人付出，也是一种幸福吧今天重看了 "to heart" 女生一直不停地为男生付出，即使遇到了挫折，也从未舍弃他如她所言，只要认真，就算是单恋，也是恋爱感情不由得我们自己控制。。。只要心向着某人，便会不知不觉地跑向他所以，我不会再逼自己放弃了冥冥之中，自有安排　＝）

happy together =)

2004-10-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

see what i've found!!!!! his horoscope prediction: You could be feeling unusually shy at the moment. Let them come to you for once, and you might find yourself face to face with someone perfectly lovely hahaha! got some truth in it =) im falling sick le.. all my sister's fault sianz. alright, going to bed goodnight and sweet dreams love, chewy

never say goodbye.. say see you again =)

2004-10-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

had our farewell assembly today not like what i expected.. the video isnt touching at all.. haha! was feeling upset when i was on my way to school recalled the very first day i stepped into aj.. orientation.. 2303 and of course not forgetting 2603.. after the farewell ceremony, we went back to our home room to take class photos felt a lil emotional but managed to hold back my tears.. didnt want

pissed.upset.disappointed.

2004-10-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

pissed. pissed. and pissed. my poor lil sister was feeling ill in school and so she called and requested my father to fetch her home. and guess what. he actually said to her that shes troublesome and refused to bring her to the doctor. i mean com'on.. shes ill! as her father, shouldnt he be concerned and worried? this isnt the first time we are getting such attitude and nonsense from him. i

smile =)

2004-10-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

oh my sky!! i simply love pansonic X400 and X500!! they are so c00l~! love the colours too.. red, black and white the red is so nice and the white and black are so classy!! hmm.. but doubt ill be able to change my phone.. never mind.. we dont always get what we want thats life. anyway, received an email from jane and yup, im indeed blessed. i have perfect eyesight, i can hear and i can speak. why

shattered.

2004-10-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

did anyone hear a loud explosion somewhere near serangoon? yup i just exploded. finally realised that i have been a time bomb for the past few days ticking away.. waiting to explode anytime alrite, the stress due to As, family problems, farewell, him and inferiority complex prove too much for me to take. broke down. for once, i felt like giving up everything. maybe i cant say give up since i

losing hopes

2004-10-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

haix.. im at a loss now.. all that happened these few days are making me lose hope the emotions im feeling are so intense that i myself cant explain.. whats more, i dont know who i can talk too.. everybody is so bz piaing for As.. and i doubt fel, xy n yt can understand what im feeling.. they probably think im just having mood swings.. what to do, im the most emotional among the four of us..

believe in yourself!! we WILL make it!! =D

2004-10-04T22:07:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this could be one of my last few blogs before As gotta sit down and really mug hard le im lagging according to my timetable.. wad to do, other than all those which i need to revise, still have so much schoolwork to do never mind, its ok.. just another two months.. no.. less than two months and As will be over and all of us will be free!!! hooraY! feeling a lil guilty for watching a chinese

walk with me till the end of time, please?

2004-10-03T01:59:00.000+08:00

this colour suits my current mood.. blueeee watching a mandarin show on channel 8.. v sad..the little boy is so cute.. was abandoned by his mother when he was just a baby leslie cheung adopted him and took care of him for four years some authority came to know that he adopted the child illegally so wanted to bring the child back to some children association leslie fought hard to keep the child by

sweet dreamS to a clueless girl

2004-10-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

im back.. feeling slightly better but still upset came across a mandarin song which suits my current mood pity that i cant post its lyrics here have been thinking a lil too much recently maybe i should go to bed earlier otherwise, the longer i stay awake, the more depressed i get thinking about certain things seriously doubting my own qualities and stuff i think im not good enough for i-know-who

moody

2004-10-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

had crying spells today.. guess im feeling this way because theres only one to two more weeks left before farewell assembly.. the thought that i cant see somebody in school everyday makes me wana cry.. wanted very much to tell him how i feel but still lack the courage.. how?! i think im gonna miss him badly.. argh sian.. no mood to carry on.. maybe come back later.. love, chewy

down and up again!!

2004-09-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

today's the first day i get back my prelim papers and i actually cried over my results.. pathetic huh?! tried real hard to hold back my tears.. but... physics papers were still within the acceptable range.. was still joking and laughing when i got them back but econ paper three was horrendous.. 19/75.. won~der~ful isnt it?! it suddenly struck me that what if i cant make it to the u?! it never

A Girl Can Dream by P.Y.T

2004-09-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

When I was a child the story would say Somebody would sweep you off your feet someday That's what I hoped would happen with you More than you could know I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands I prayed for the day when I would get the chance Just when I worked up the courage to try Much to my surpriseYou had somebody else Cuz these feelings I keep to myself [CHORUS:] I may never get to

Im backkk!!!

2004-09-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

hehe im finally backkk!! waa.. have been a long time since i last blogged huh?! haha anyhow, im so happY my computer has 'recovered'!! =D hmm.. so long never blog.. feel a lil foreign.. haha! k shall update more when i feel like it! bye! love, chewy

warmed.

2004-08-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

Someone close to you turns out to be even wiser and more loving than you ever suspected. You have their support, now take the plunge! Learn by example -- give out wise advice freely when it's asked for. Now is the time to let yourself go and not be burdened by other people's ways of thinking. You're feeling very strong, and this is accented by the love you receive. You are one link in a great

no dinner and dance

2004-08-12T12:40:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. last nite, i was still in a dilemma whether to go for dinner n dance.. who noes, juz now aft econs, i realised jj not gg.. so i decided not to go too.. den the guys oso said they dun feel like gg le.. so in the end, the whole class is not gg.. except for a few.. haha gd la.. fel's not gg.. my class oso not gg.. so i dun feel bad abt not gg le.. hahahahaha

the notebk

2004-08-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

whoo~! juz came hm from marina sq.. went to watch the notebk wif fel.. hahaha nice show~ beautiful sceneries, touching romance story.. go check it out~! how nice will it be if the love of my life is still by my side when im old, calling me sweetheart, holding me in his arms.. nv foresaking.. hahaha im all hopeful again abt finding the love of my life n living happily ever aft... *grinz* but b4

2004-08-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

lalala~ im home!! haha went to study wif fel todae.. au supposed to join us initially but her mama fell sick so she gotta accompany her mama to a doc.. well, so i was stucked wif felyup again.. hahaha o0ps! but honestly, studyin wif her is fun she ate so much stuff todae!! 2 cups of minestrone soup, fries, lemon tea, butterfly prawns, apple pies n chicken nuggets!! o my sky~~ she's becoming a

REVIVED!!!!

2004-08-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

muahahahahahahaha~~ im back!!!!!! arent u guys happy???!!!! i am!!!!! hahahaha all thanks to aunty bridgette!!!! YES!! MY COMPUTER'S OK LE!!!!!! so happyyyyy~~~ hehe best national day ever man!!! hahahahaha k got lotsa things to do.. byeeeeeee~~ love, chewy

back finally

2004-07-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

but i miss u finally.. .. .. haha~ i miss my comp!! sianZ. BUT!! i've confessed to my mama le.. guess my comp will be sent to a "doc" real soon.. hehez *confession is good for the soul* oh dear.. the sch bell juz rang.. time to go for econs le.. bYebYez...

2004-07-20T08:27:00.000+08:00

sobsobz.. my comp's dead!!! cannot come online le.. hehe im now in sch comp lab la.. but in a way oso good la at least lidat i can spend more time studying.. haha sianz =_= u pple take care~~~ byez love, chewy

disappointed

2004-07-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

why did he lie? why let me find out he lied? why betray my trust? why why why?????

If by Bread

2004-07-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

If a picture paints a thousand words, Then why can�t I paint you? The words will never show the you I�ve come to know. If a face could launch a thousand ships, Then where am I to go? There�s no one home but you, You�re all that�s left me too. And when my love for life is running dry, You come and pour yourself on me. If a man could be two places at one time, I�d be with you. Tomorrow and today

maybe i shld gif up

2004-07-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

I found her diary underneath a tree. and started reading about me The words she's written took me by surpise, you'd never read them in her eyes. They said that she had found the love she waited for. Wouldn't you know it, she wouldn't show it. When she confronted with the writing there, simply pretended not to care. I passed it off as just in keeping with her total disconcerting air and

bbq @ pasir ris

2004-07-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

had bbq @ pasir ris.. ps outing la thot it was gonna be qt ahem at first but lucky it din turned out as bad as me n fel expected.. hahahaha quite bored at first la.. coz duno wad to do n our help was not needed hahaha so fel n me sat on a bench n read the mags we bought aft tt, started munching on sum food.. not too bad.. den we started taking over the job of bbq the food.. cook for them still

spiderman is cool~~

2004-07-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

went out wif xy, yt, fel n her taiwanese fren, henry rather paiseh at first coz dino wad to sae to tt boy.. only 16 lor n he was qt diff from wad i imagine him to be haha.. n tts bcoz fel cant gauge how tall a person is.. nvm long story haha hmm.. so we shopped ard raffles city while waiting for xy to come and we went to buy sum special present for sum special person.. hahaha secret! ssshhhhh~~~

first day of midyrs

2004-06-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

no gd no gd is all i can say for gp today cant say it was tough but i din perform well oh well.. kinda expected this juz dun wana do too badly maths n econ tmr.. to look at it negatively, my mood's gonna be worse aft the papers yet, to be positive about it, ill be left with only physics hmm.. cant blame anybody started revision too late.. and even when i began on it, din focus it all boils down

happy together =)

2004-06-27T19:06:00.000+08:00

Mint Tea... You are Mint Tea! Naturally sweet you have a happy-go-lucky attitude.The world is full of fun and wonder! Althoughyou can be naive at times and quite aloof toyour surroundings you know how to have goodclean fun! Most people see you as cute and verygentle by nature and it is most likely true.You have a great outlook on life and you trynot to let things get to you. Go you! What type of

/\_/\

2004-06-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

alrite.. 1 1/2 more days to midyrs hahaha.. rather surprised n impressed wif myself.. can still come online n slack haix.. prob coz i noe its gone case for midyrs le.. so no pt worrying animore juz wana do well for As.. so aft midyrs.. gonna meet up wif da gals every wkend to study we muz all do well together~~!! hmm.. realised how crucial this period of time gonna be.. shant waste it on

grandad

2004-06-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

got reminded of my grandad upon seein a swiss roll cake he used to like it alot wld buy it for him as high tea snack whenever we visit him in hk still miss him lots anw, it has been a long time since i visit my relatives in hk.. miss them esp my cousies.. the last time i went back was 6 yrs ago.. woah qt long ago sia haha nvm.. maybe i shall visit them aft As hmm.. came online to search for a

bumblebee

2004-06-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

woo~~ had a bz dae fel n xy came to my place to study haha fel was da earliest tho she was late xy worse.. msged me to inform tt she overslept n guess wad.. she WENT BACK TO BED aft msgin me!!! my sky.. haha~ n worst of all.. ms dai yi ting!! din even turn up!!! oh well.. haha~ initially planned to study at least 2 to 3 chaps of phy in the end, only completed one -_-" haha.. confirmed dead for

smiles blissfully

2004-06-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

goodie moodie~ haha~ haf been in extreme gd mood these few days go to bed wif wide grin on my face manz hehez.. duno y oso haha but was rather down on my luck yest ah was happily readin my notes den sumbody had to come n stress me up again -_-" den this BIG FLYING COCKROACH flew in from duno where SCREAMED sia!! hahaha~ wads more, daddy mummy n meimei not at hm den my maid woke up.. haha felt so

good mood

2004-06-21T01:42:00.000+08:00

ben xiao jie jin tian xin qing hao! XD k so i still din wish my daddy happy fathers' day cant brg myself to sae it out i guess i still need sum time but well, we had dinner together.. the whole family qt peaceful.. a lil squabblings but acceptable nonetheless, im in a good mood todae.. since this morning most probably due to last nite's dream =) really weird but sweet! hahaha but din revise as

fathers' day

2004-06-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

fathers' day. mixed feelings. miss the daddy i used to have yrs back. still watiting. but most prob a fruitless wait. nevertheless.. chewy jia u!! for studies. for dreams. for life. for everything. =), chewy

da race agst time

2004-06-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

i feel like im racing agst time seriously racing agst time and i think im losing the race oh my.. its like i wake up SO late everyday and when im really settled down for studying, its alr past noon!! ok. study study study lunch mugging again and dinner follows den comes piaing aftwhich, will come online and slack for awhile and bedtime! and this goes on and on....... but the thing is, i feel

2004-06-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

bored bored bored cant concentrate again todae guess i can only study at bishan mos oh God. k shant crap much cant concentrate oso muz study ciao love, chewy

tata young -- i think of you

2004-06-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

When I'm down and all alone When nothing seems to matter When I lose my hope When I'm sad and confused When it all gets turned around and 'round I can't seem to reach for solid ground When everything I've believed in seems untrue All I have to do Is think of you I think of you and it's gone Like you chase away the storm Making it all okay I think of you I think of you and I'm strong And I

back on track again?

2004-06-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

kinda gettin back on track wif studyin which is gd but deres more to catch up on hopefully i can complete most topics, if not all did integration n its application todae den chitchat a lil wif da gals toked abt our As.. lamented not gg poly instead.. planned for our overseas trip durin da half-a-yr break.. lots more actually.. time spent wif them is always so fun!! puttin tt aside, kinda worry

2004-06-15T01:20:00.000+08:00

juz got reminded of da pain of loved ones leavin me my granduncle left juz b4 my sec 1 exams.. had to try real hard to study my grandad in hk left during da end of my PSLE. it was extremely hard to focus n study for my exams.. but well.. i managed to so hopefully... gd luck, fren. love, chewy

no more?

2004-06-14T13:47:00.000+08:00

haf not been hafin sweet dreams for a long time in fact, nightmares seem more frequent these daes n im beginning to lose my interest in certain things dun get da least Xcited over blah blah blah anymore maybe wad i said early on was rite.. but well, peeps chose not to believe me sae im self-deluding n stuff.. hahaha~ da feeling juz wasnt as strong la nvm.. maybe im feeling this wae coz im juz too

new found place to retire!!

2004-06-13T21:27:00.000+08:00

waa~~ i juz discover another place i wana considered to live in aft i retire~~ SCOTLAND! da sky dere is simply so beautiful hehez.. actually i found scotland a v beautiful place when i was watchin a hong kong movie, lost n found, on channel 8.. tt movie still remains as one of my fav.. da storyline's a lil cliche but v touching.. ill cry everytime i watch it.. hehez juz take a look at this..

badminton craze!!!

2004-06-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

was juz tokin to my sis abt badminton this aftn.. tt gal ah.. got a lil improvement den wana challenge me le.. fine la.. now beta than me le mahz.. refused to praise her manz.. hahaha~ unfair lorz.. she gets to train every wk lehz.. i nv k juz wait till my As are over.. hmpF! hehez anw, got reminded of peter gade!!! haha~ muahahaha.. juz take a look at this!!! so cute yet man rite??!! haha~

no title

2004-06-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

How to make a chewy Ingredients: 5 parts success 3 parts silliness 5 parts energy Method:Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy! Username: Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com hahaha.. this is qt fun.. i noe its dumb la.. but dumb stuff can be fun =p hmm.. anw, i still dun think my eyes are yellow lorz.. hahaha stared into da mirror for so

yellow eyeballs??

2004-06-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

mama juz said my eyes look yellow wad the.. haha~ gdness.. she said maybe im suffering from sum illness =X so.. im gonna be gd gal n slp early tonite.. but eh, 1 plus am isnt tt early huh.. haha at least qt early for me le la =S k gD niTe n swT dReamS~ love, chewy

back from chomp chomp~~

2004-06-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

muahahaha.. went chomp chomp for dinner juz now.. stingray was yumyum but da red ruby sux! haha~ auau bluff me!! my fav dessert lehz.. lemme taste sucha horrible one.. =.= hehez maybe diff stall ba.. nvm.. hmm.. die la.. ivan stressed me up again........ hes left wif only 3 chaps for phy.. while ive not even completed one~~~~ help!!! left wif only 2 wks.. haix.. but honestly, im seriously still

lazy le

2004-06-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

hehez.. k layout kinda considered done.. maybe will add sum stuff here n dere.. c how first la.. hmm.. wad u guys think abt this layout?? not v elaborate coz i like things 2 b simple hehez watched bachelor 4 juz now.. kinda like meredith.. poor gal.. get to haf a one-to-one date wif bob n juz when she was preparin herself happily.. received news tt her granny passed awae.. my heart really

sianz

2004-06-11T17:19:00.001+08:00

haix.. die la.. nv study again.. bleahz! hmm.. auau passed me a video tape yest.. got nicholas!! hehez.. he v farnie in da talkshow lorz.. *grinz widely* so cute~~!!! gdness gracious.. haha~ anw, auau oso recorded this voice percussion by FLAME to show me la.. wah seh.. they chao zai manz!! wonder how they do it.. hehez maybe.. maybe.. da total losers shld try it out sumdae.. muahahahaha~~

change layout le!

2004-06-11T03:15:00.000+08:00

hehez. change layout le.. but still not completed yet.. tired le la.. shall continue tmr.. hehez. love, chewy

expecto patronum

2004-06-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

heyheyz! juz came home from bishan not long ago.. hehez met up wif auau, yapyap n daidai *gossebumpz* to study.. not v productive tho.. bleahz! hehez.. den went to pastamania for dinner.. yummy yummy~ den went to watch harry potter n da prisoner of azkaban.. nice nice my first hp show actually.. din understand y da craze over hp until todae.. not bad la but like a lil too short.. hehez

all dreamy~~~~~~~~~~~

2004-06-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

awwww~~~ i wana go langkawi for holidae!!! i wana live in da water bungalow!!!! da water so clean n clear manz!!!!! awwww~~~ i wana go canada for holidae!!! i wana stae in da ice hotel!!! get married in da ice chapel!!!!! so nice n holy~~~~~~ so peaceful yet romantic~~~~!!!!!

slackin again~

2004-06-08T10:10:00.000+08:00

hehez.. here i am in sch comp lab slackin again.. k to be fair.. yest wasnt tt miserable aft all.. todae.. still too early to tell la.. but amazin race is cancelled which means we cant get outta sch le.. sobz.. haha~ later got wet games.. not lookin forward to it tho.. hehez.. tired la.. din wan wake up this morn one lorz.. sianz.. fallin aslp now manz.. ciaoz. loVe, chewY

i wana go home..

2004-06-07T11:53:00.000+08:00

ARGHZ!!!! im slackin in sch comp lab now.. damn sianz.. only consolation will be im not staein overnite in sch.. HENG AR!!! hehez.. hmm.. todae's mood much beta.. prob subconciously tryin to cheer myself up so tt todae wun be too miserable.. haha im starvin now btw.. din eat breakfast n lunch is at ONE pm.. boowoohoo~~ haix.. sianz! love, chewy

still feeling pessimistic..

2004-06-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

encounter shell of life loving sum1 arghz.. blogged in mandarin juz now.. but forgot to change da encoding.. arghz.. den all gone.. blogged abt my mood n thots for da dae.. was feeling so sian diao.. or is melancholy a beta word?? den watched eason on zhong yi da ge da.. so farnie n got a lil more positive again.. den such a thing had to happen to me.. arghz.. sianz.. nvm.. tmr got camp le.. muz

muz recommend..

2004-06-06T02:18:00.000+08:00

hmm.. toking to yh.. feeling pessimistic again but i guess its only for todae la! positive chewy will most prob be back by tmr.. hehez.. oh anw, i think da chat wif yh todae is da most in-depth one?? haha.. no crap for todae.. more serious n profound stuff.. haha anw, found a few stuff online n if i dun intro to u peeps, i will feel damn bad.. for my frens for both guys n gals for all to learn..

slacker shit

2004-06-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

o0psie! i woke up at 2pm todae.. =p haha.. wached iron chef aft i went offline at 3am.. den fell aslp on da bed =X woke up at 7 coz da alarm clock rang.. only to realise tt da tv n table lamp were still on =XXXXX.. haha den went back to slp.. had a weird dream.. nvm arghz!!!!! gdness gracious!!!!! nicholas tse's on tv!!!! hahaha.. learning shooting.. so shuai~~!!!!!!! my skY~! so man.. so stylo!!

finally home =)

2004-06-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

whew~~~~ exhausted. haha.. went back to sch for maths lect on numerical mtds.. den went out for lunch wif aihua, char, yuwei n gab.. den went back to sch lib to study.. did sum mcqs on electric field only to realise from ivan tt this chapter is not tested in da coming common test =_=|| haha.. stupid mashimaro(ivan) laughed at me.. so i said im studying for A levels can?? den he replied.. can~~

lost

2004-06-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yh juz asked whetha im ok.. told him yah.. but actually im not.. haha feeling lost.. anw, toking abt tt.. itazura na kiss oso got an episode whereby naoki doesnt noe wad course to sign up for uni.. he's so gd in everything tt he noes he can excel anything.. so he felt lost when he had to make his decision im oso feeling lost when it comes to wad i wana be in da future shld i take up a

happy~~

2004-06-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

hehehehehehe wached da whole set of vcds of itazura na kiss~~ so happY!! nice nice nice show.. if anyone of u has lost faith in love.. shld wach it manz.. haha when u see how kotoko strives to win naoki's love.. get herself into all kinds of trouble.. making a fool of herself.. sumore naoki doesnt show tt he cares at all.. so aloof n stuff.. u cant help but admire her courage n believe in love

CANT stop smiling~~ =D

2004-06-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

AH~~!! see wad i haf found~~!!!! from certain sumbody's horoscope prediction for tmr: Don't get too frustrated if you-know-who isn't giving clear signals about whether they're into you. It may be that they haven't made up their mind yet -- give them a little space, and they'll let you know in time. from mine: Guess what? You don't have to make every decision right now. If you're into a guy or

2004-06-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

hehez.. yh n gab shld be reading this now... muahahaha nothing to blog actually.. hahaha wrong time to request to see my blog.. bleahz! byebye love, chewy

2004-05-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i noe fel is reading this now.. muahaha ok.. shall sae sumthing bad abt her.. hehez no la.. she's only gone for a day.. currently in kl but i already miss her a lil le.. hahaha.. does this make me sound like a lez.. well.. stupid yh saes i look like one.. idiot~! hahaha..

relieved

2004-05-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.. tokin to yh now.. been a long time since our last chat.. tt silly bro ah.. wana wach exorcist.. so scary lor.. i dun dare to wach.. haha.. think i scared him into abandoning da idea of wachin it le.. muahaha hmm.. jasmine trias is outta american idol.. think she shld haf been out last wk lor.. poor la toya.. kena sacrificed.. bet tmr my class guys will make noise le.. pretty face wins..

felicia's bdae n surprise!!!

2004-05-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

haha.. happy happy.. went 2 parkway parade 2 meet xy n yt.. went 2 buy prezie for fel n yt made a v nice card 4 fel.. haha den met fel n walked to east coast.. actually, initially we planned nicely wadda do.. but when we arrived at da beach.. couldnt decide whether we want to eat at fish n co. or da seafood restaurants.. so decided to check out da price first.. so we embarked on our journey to da

not again..

2004-05-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

feeling tired todae.. went to support hockey guys.. haix.. scored da first goal den nj got one (which is super duper tyco..) in too.. den they got another in n yah.. in da end we lost to nj 2-1.. not tt we are sore losers but as supporters, we were down to cheer our fellow schmates.. den got this bloody idiot who did sumthin super qb.. really pissed me off manz.. when our ball went out.. he

wonderful day..

2004-05-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. went to support bballers todae.. haix feel sorry for them.. anw, he had tt look in his eyes again todae.. but it felt diff le.. hehehez was damn shagged initially.. but now.. HAPPY~! ^_^ think i will haf sweet dreams tonite.. yaY!! love, chewy

2004-05-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

quarrelled wif dad yest.. argh.. i hate him for being so lazy n stubborn.. hate wad he said to me yest.. support myself thru' u?? if he's hardworking enuff but cant earn enuff.. i've nothin to say n will most definitely pay for my sch fees.. but.. he made it sound like he no longer has anymore responsibilities.. n when i said all tt he's running away from.. he questioned my attitude.. com'on..

gratitude is da memory of da heart...

new journey...

tired x 100!

imagine..

the earth is round! watch ur back! hahaha

And That's What Hurts

Anne Murray -- You needed me

Breathe again..

losing grip

(>.<) (#_#)

mistake!

qing song zi zai zhen hao!

from a different angle..

XXXcited!!!!!!!

get me outta this!

can you tell me..?

favourite quote of the day!

*smile*

friends are all i need right now..

goodbye to *its you*

*ggrrrr.barks*

ouch..

looking forward to that day..

smile =)

im 18 years old =)

cranky.

forgive and forget?

苦恋 -- 张学友

happy together =)

never say goodbye.. say see you again =)

pissed.upset.disappointed.

smile =)

shattered.

losing hopes

believe in yourself!! we WILL make it!! =D

walk with me till the end of time, please?

sweet dreamS to a clueless girl

moody

down and up again!!

A Girl Can Dream by P.Y.T

Im backkk!!!

warmed.

no dinner and dance

the notebk

REVIVED!!!!

back finally

disappointed

If by Bread

maybe i shld gif up

bbq @ pasir ris

spiderman is cool~~

first day of midyrs

happy together =)

/\_/\

grandad

bumblebee

*smiles blissfully*

good mood

fathers' day

da race agst time

tata young -- i think of you

back on track again?

no more?

new found place to retire!!

badminton craze!!!

no title

yellow eyeballs??

back from chomp chomp~~

lazy le

sianz

change layout le!

expecto patronum

all dreamy~~~~~~~~~~~

slackin again~

i wana go home..

still feeling pessimistic..

muz recommend..

slacker shit

finally home =)

lost

smile

goodbye to its you

ggrrrr.barks

smiles blissfully