new journey...

eh i got myself a new blog..hehe..
http://chewytiramisu.blogspot.com

tired x 100!

started work for quite a few days le..damn tired..but im v happy today!
hehe cos the boss praised me muahahaha
although this 12-10 job doesnt allow me to go shopping or have lunch wif friends..i still quite like it hehe get to meet all kinds of people..haha..best of all, i get to know all the different brands for beer..haha something which i usually wont bother myself about
im deprived of sleep though..siGh..nvm its only till cny anw
ok shant waste time crapping online..time for bed!
goodnite, sweet dreams =)

my first entry for the year 2005
life has been pretty much the same. boring.
chinese new year's about a month from now and gosh! mummy has been nagging me about spring cleaning =x
i dont understand why is she always so uptight about chinese new year..i mean it comes EVERY year.. whats the big deal???
guess what? she screamed at me when i told her that i will most probably be working on chinese new year's eve..all the crap about i should leave that day free so that i can help out at home and have reunion dinner at gong gong's place..
but com'on, reunion dinner doesnt mean anything..its all for show..what matters is, whether the family is happy together..if it is, nothing else matters..
anyhow, i only have to work till afternoon on that day..
see..she yelled at me without listening to what i've gotta sae. whatever.
perhaps thats why i never tell her my thoughts..not that i dont want to but i see no point in doing so..she doesnt listen. doesnt understand. neither do my dad or sis. (how nice would it be if i have an elder sibling. preferably an elder brother..gals do get rather irritating at times haha!)
nothing i do seems to please them..cant remember how it feels to be praised by them..forget it, i shall praise myself then! hahaha
chewy, you are doing well! muahahahahaha =D
i can be strong ya?
even if i cant, no harm fooling myself hahaha
ignorance can be a bliss..its a blessing that i dont know im stupid hahaha
love, chewy

imagine..

hey im back! haha as if anybody cares hahaha
watched the news just now and began to imagine myself as one of those victims in the disaster..
hmm wad will be on my mind before i die..? who will i think of..? if i had to make a choice between which of my sons to let go, wad will be my decision..? how painful and agonising will it be to lose grip of my loved ones and see them being gushed away by the water..? if i survive, how will it feel to be returning home alone without those who went wif me..?
oh my..tragic..

anyway, i bought a wallet card from a christian bookshop and it reads:
I was regretting the past
And fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking:
"My name is I am"
He paused.
I waited.
He continued,
"When you live in the past with its mistakes and regrets, it is hard. I am not there. My name is not I was.
When you live in the future with its problems and fears, it is hard. I am not there. My name is not I will be.
When you live in this moment, it is not hard. I am here. My name is I am."

just wana share this wif u all =)
love, chewy

the earth is round! watch ur back! hahaha

haha no wonder people say the earth is round (i mean duhz..)
but yup..here i am trying to avoid somebody and someone else is avoiding me..farnie huh?! haha
then again, since the earth is round, there is still possibility of meeting that person..haha so lets just see if we are fated..
you yuan de hua..dou dou zhuan zhuan hai shi hui yu dao de..bi ye bi bu liao..duo ye duo bu diao..hahaha
oh btw, forgot to update that i've finally let go le =)
completely..shant go into the details but yup! im feeling so much more relieved..
too bad there arent many i can share my joy with since very few noe whos that! hahaha
anw, xy is still kinda doubtful about it..she thinks i still like him..nvm, let time tell..perhaps shes right! hahahaha!
love, chewy